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You are The Wheel of Fortune
Good fortune and happiness but sometimes a species of intoxication with success
The Wheel of Fortune is all about big things, luck, change, fortune. Almost always good fortune. You are lucky in all things that you do and happy with the things that come to you. Be careful that success does not go to your head however. Sometimes luck can change.
Current Mood: crappy Current Music: "further from myself"-Pillar
Dear Santa...
Dear Santa,
This year I've been busy!
Last month I stole obeidia's purse (-30 points). In August I gave broken_n_jaded a life-saving blood transfusion (50 points). In July I helped inspectorjury across the street (6 points). In February I committed genocide... Sorry about that, invisiblechild (-5000 points). Last Wednesday I had a shoot-out with rival gang lords on the 5 near LA (-76 points).
Overall, I've been naughty (-5050 points). For Christmas I deserve a lump of coal!
Current Mood: happy Current Music: "Perfect"- Flyleaf
I got a Puppy tonight. It's a lab mix. He weighs in at 21 pounds! He's only 9 weeks old. He's a big cute little fella! Here is a picture of him... I think I'm gonna call him Prince unless I can come up with something better. He's sooo sweet too. He's really playful. When I put him out in the garage a few minutes ago, he curled up in some saw dust and went to sleep. It was sooo cute. I had to move him to the little dog cage I have, for the night though so he doesn't potty everywhere. Tomorrow, I'm going to put a leash on him and take him outside and introduce him to the farm and the other animals. He's not leash trained yet and doesn't have his shots. I plan on getting his shots soon though.
Current Mood: working Current Music: "Right Here"-Staind
Check out my Friend's Band: Nerve Damage (Yes, they are from N.W. Indiana....)-- be sure to sign thier guest book and tell them Anjee told ya about them!! 8-)
Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: "Be Yourself"- Audioslave
BAND/Singer My Favorite SONG(s)from my number one choice:STAIND ------------------ -----------------------------------------------------
1. STAIND Right Here Fill Me Up Price You Pay Safe Place Fade (both versions-accoustic and regular) Epiphany Outside (All versions including the one with Fred Durst) Sober (yes, it's a remake of the Tool song) Intro For You Krwlng (linkin park 'reanimation' cd feat. Aaron Lewis) Blow Away It's Been Awhile (all versions including accoustic) Pressure Crawl Home Mudshovel How About You Could It Be Tonight Falling Down Let It Out(song Aaron Lewis does accoustically-Awesome lyrics!) Fray Zoe Jane (song Aaron Lewis wrote for his daughter) Just Go
2. Disturbed (*~*Drools over David Draiman and his awesome voice) 3. Godsmack (Sully Erna... need I say more?? Just love his voice too!) 4. The Smashing Pumpkins/ Billy Corgan (solo stuff) 5. Korn 6. Linkin Park 7. Chevelle 8. A Perfect Circle 9. P.O.D. 10. Metallica 11. Ozzy Osbourne (ok.... so he's not alternative or nu metal, but still I had to include him) 12. Saliva 13. 311 14. Led Zepplin (had to have them on the list too) 15. Breaking Benjamin 16. Depswa 17. The Offspring 18. Nirvana 19. Red Hot Chili Peppers 20. The Doors 21. 3 Doors Down 22. Creed 23. Limp Bizkit 24. Counting Crows 25. The Beatles 26. Journey 27. Pearl Jam 28. Def Leppard 29. Brooks and Dunn 30. John Williams ( ok, he really doesn't belong on the list since he's a composer but I put him on it anyway.... think Boston Pops Orchestra and A lot of famous music from movies) 31. Goo Goo Dolls 32. System Of A Down 33. Tantric 34. Tool 35. Bush 36. No Doubt 37. Frank Sinatra (had to include him) 38. Rosemary Clooney (and her too) 39. Poison 40. Fuel 41. Aerosmith 42. Pink Floyd 43. Steve Miller Band 44. Stone Temple Pilots 45. John Mellencamp 46. Tim McGraw 47. Live 48. Bryan Adams 49. The Beach Boys 50. Audioslave (and Soundgarden.... mmmmm Chris Cornell *~*Drools*~*) 51. Tom Petty 52. Bon Jovi 53. The Bloodhoud Gang 54. Stabbing Westward 55. Nine Inch Nails 56. Cold 57. Coldplay 58. Drowning Pool 59. Puddle Of Mudd 60. Nickleback* *way too many more to name, so I decided to stop at 60!
Hi guys and gals. It's me, the great Anj... thought I'd make a posting of my top 60 bands/singers to allow some people that aren't aware of what kind of music I like to listen to, to get to know me a bit better. As you can tell I like mostly Nu metal and hard alternative bands, but I listen to just about anything and everything depending upon my mood. Staind is my favorite band because I can really relate to Aaron Lewis' lyrics, and also I just love the way they sound!! ( Aaron has a very good voice that I also love to sing along with)...... so anyway, hope You've enjoyed this list. P.S. My song lyric writting is going pretty good....who knows, maybe one day I'll make a cd and get famous... hey it's ok to dream right?? cause I've always had a dream to one day sing in front of a lot of people, maybe even get a band together and be the lead singer. LOL anyway... love ya's!! Now I leave you with one question.... L8terz ya'll! Love, Anj.
[/B] What are some of your favorite bands/singers?? [/B]
Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: "Could It be"- Staind
Pics From When I met Aaron and Mike From Staind!! 5/11/2005 Hey so here we go..... here are the Awesome Pics From when I and Bob got the chance to meet Aaron Lewis and Mike Mushok from the band Staind and also they performed a live 2 song accoustic set ('It's been awhile' and also 'outside') and also they played 4 songs of thier new cd that's coming out on August 9th! OMG, I can't wait!! They're My favorite band BTW... (along with Disturbed and Godsmack). So anyway these were all taken at the Chicago Recording Company in Chicago, IL... Pretty awesome place! Lots of awesome Artists have recorded there including the smashing pumpkins, Billy Corgan, Disturbed, and now Staind has Recorded there also (thier new cd is called Chapter V)... I can't wait till it comes out. Aaron and Mike were both soooooo sweet and they didn't mind talking to all of us and answering our questions and autographing stuff and taking pics with us. I never dreamed that Aaron and I have a lot in common with things in our pasts, and I could REALLY Identify with him and Staind's lyrics. Scary huh? cause there's a lot of pain in those lyrics at times, and those are the things I identify with. Hope U all Enjoy these... sorry if I post a lot of them. but I think all these pics are awesome... period!! So I'll post these as a favorites only entry for now, because those of you who are closest to me, know that i'm a private person at times, as is Aaron Lewis. I read that somewhere. I really can understand what he means.... ok, wait, I Lied... I changed my mind, I'll go ahead and make it a public entry, since it's aaron lewis and mike mushok too, and there's a lot of Staind fans out there, so what the heck. love ya's! Anjee Me and Aaron Lewis(lead singer of Staind)-5/5/2005 @ Chicago Recording Company
Me and Mike Mushok(of Staind)-5/5/2005@Chicago Recording Company
(l-r) "Freak" from 94.7 The Zone FM-Chicago, Brian "the Whipping boy" (94.7 Zone), Aaron Lewis bent over at table Signing some stuff for the Zone, Mike Mushok, ? (someone who came with Aaron and Mike-- possibly Aaron's Brother, Jesse?), and "Sludge" (94.7 Zone).@ Chicago Recording Company 5/5/2005.
Bob, Aaron Lewis (lead singer of Staind), and Me (Notice that Aaron has his tounge out a bit, but it's a little hard to see it in this pic..., but if u seen the actual pictures I got back from _______ u can tell!! lol..... how funny is that not to mention cute??)... Chicago Recording Company-5/5/2005
Bob, Mike Mushok (of Staind), and Me@ Chicago Recording Company- 5/5/2005
Me, "Freak" from 94.7 The Zone Fm-Chicago, and Bob...@Chicago Recording Company 5/5/2005 (Special Thanks to "Sludge" from 94.7 Zone for taking this picture for us)
Psyched Out To Da Max!!! oh yeah!! whooo hooo! 5/4/2005 well I suppose my faithful diary readers are wondering why i'm in such a good mood today, huh?? well I guess I haev some explaining to do......so let me get started. trust me this is ALL GOOD, for me anyway, cause this is one of my favorite bands!! well yesterday afternoon around 237 pm to be exact, I got a phone call from a radio station in chicago letting me know I had won one of thier contests... this is a contest I really wanted to win too, but didn't think I had much of a chance, but got lucky and won!!! omg, I'm soooooo excited... and I think my best friend is kinda jelous too cause she can't go with me and Bob... well I get to go see Staind tomorrow morning (the thing is actually starting at 12 noon, but we have to be there by 1130 am so they can check our id's and stuff)........ so anyway I called bob right away and told him the news... and he's psyched too!! He can't wait to see Staind up close also (mmmmmmm Aaron Lewis up close....sorry i'm drooling now a little). He really likes them too!! He's spending the night here tonight also since we have to get up around 7 am tomorrow and get ready to leave by 745 am (8 at the latest)..... hmmmmm bad for me, cause I'm a grouch in the morning, but my honey spending the night with me, will change that, he always cheers me up and makes my day. I really love having him in my life... anyway, I'm gonna cut and paste the details of what the contest is, I copied this off thier site... so it's exact as they had it.... can't wait to see Bob tonight again either... (yeah i got to spend time with him yesterday too.... he's at work now, so I've got a few short hours to wash my bedding and make my bed....... man, I'm such a procrastinator!! oh crap.... forgot to take my meds today too... I just got up at 1115 too... call me lazzzzzzyyyyyy!! lol.... it's now 110 pm... well at least I remembered I didn't take them yet, unlike the other day where I forgot to take my second dose of allegra-D, but I took my other 2 ... anyway, below is a cut and paste of the contest details that I won.... hope too many of my friends aren't jelous now cause I got to see STAIND in person... I know one person already that is, but I'm gonna try to get her an autograph if possible... I hope they'll take time to autograph stuff..... that would be sooo cool. Well I gotta go for now, cause I got sooooo much to do now to get ready for when bob stays tonight.... Ohhhhhh I can't wait!! I'm gonna try to pin him down and tickle him!!! lol. I gotta watch out though, he likes to tickle back... love ya's!! note: I took out the details of Where in Chicago this is at. everything else is there. God I still can't believe I actually was one of the winners!! Wow... And BTW, I've won about 4-5 contests from this radio station in the last year... pretty lucky huh? last contest I won was the shield season 3 on DVD..... pretty cool huh?? anway here's the deatils below on what I won, minus the where in chicago this takes place. Anjee **************************************************************************************************************************** Staind Preview Party Club Zone members can register now for the chance to win a pair of passes to The Zone's private CD Preview Party with Staind where the band will perform a short 2-song acoustic set, preview a few tracks from their soon-to-be released CD, answer questions and meet you! Staind CD Preview Party at ___________________. Thursday, May 5 Private CD Preview Party with Staind...only from Atlantic Records and Chicago'sNew Rock Station 94.7 The Zone. Winners will be selected at random from all entries received by Noon on Tuesday, May 3.
Current Mood: silly Current Music: "Serenity"- Godsmack
ewwwwwwwww, this cake is gross looking! I know if I came across anything this digustign I would definately run far, far away... click the link to see the picture and also the recipe... I saw this on one of my free open diary friend's diaries and of course took a look at the cake and the recipe... and got a shock! Uncle Dave, I'm sure U can post this on your diary also if U want to.. lmao.
Current Mood: crushed Current Music: "Crazy Train"- Ozzy Osbourne
a copy of what happend tonight that I posted on my NA online "homegroup"'s bullitin board.... --------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Subject: hurting and crying while writting this... Date: 12/01/2004 Author: Anjee S. Reply ok something happend tonight.... it upset me. umm i dont' want to single this person out, but most of you knwo him anyway, but still I will not mention his name because I dont' want to embarass him or anything. I guess he had to big of a load in reguards to sponsees, so he informed me that he needed to let me go.. so Now I'm sponsorless again. I todl him I was ok with it, but now that it's had time to soak in I begin to think and wonder some things. Like was it me? He says it wasn't, but sometimes I still wonder if I was too much of a burden on him and his time. He did help me to learn a lot in the short time he sponsored me, I'm grateful to have had his help to sponsor me and his willingness to have put up with my Sh!t and to help me to learn to apply the principles. I woudl get another online one, but I think I need a f2f one anyway. But with my past history with something happeing everytime I get a decent sponsor that I actualyl can open up to and tlak to abotu stuff and start to work the steps with and get up to step 4, it starts to become very reminiscent of my past history of sponsors dumping me after sponsoring me and getting to know me and deciding that they have no time for sponsee, and it hurt.. but I understand. I feel so abandoned and alone with this cause theis upsets me and makes me wonder if my recovery is worth trying to bother getting another sponsor... and no, i'm nto trying to lay a guilt trip on my sponsor... just trying to get rid of this stuff in my heart before it eats into my thinking.. and makes me get stuck in my head abtou this subject.. I dont' mean to offend any of my friends here at egna.. but I had to get rid of this stuff.. my heart is so torn and crushed right now. It never fails liek I said something always happens that ppl can't sponsor me anymore. I know I'm on the pity pot, but so what? at least I can admit it. sorry if I wasted space here at egna. *still crying* I love you guys so much, thanks for listening. Anjee
Current Mood: morose Current Music: "Prayer"-Disturbed
whoooo hooooo! I got to talk to my cousin Alexis, after I got back from my other cousin Missi's bridal shower. That was fun. I really could go on for hours about how enlightening (errrr ummmm extremely excrutiating emotionally I mean) to be stuck sitting next to the old teacher that u couldn't stand and she couldn't stand me either cause we just didn't get along with each other in the least bit, but is friends with your cousin, so U have to be socialble.... well I saw her and I nearly fainted.. wouldn't U know it, but fate woudl have it that those were abtou the only 2 seats left in the country club so we had to sit at that table. It was also good though because we got to see Aunt Nancy, Gwen, and Ann Marie too... they were also at that same table. It was interesting. We played a game to decide who 'wins' the centerpiece at each table.. aunt nancy got lucky and won it. it was really pretty... long stem red roses made to look liek a tree and it had a gold basket too.. it was so cool. Anyway Missi's wedding is on the 18th of December out at St Joseph's College. Surprise, surprise! lol.. Must be a Family tradition or something... seems most of my relatives have gotten married out there on my mom's side. Bob will be going too. Can't wait. I know Missi is going to look so gorgeous in her Wedding Dress! I haven't seen it yet, but Aunt Louise says it very pretty. Last time I went to a wedding it was Jon and Gwen's and I caught Gwen's bouquet, so I'm just waiting for the tradition of catching the bouquet to come true. I think its pretty close though, because Bob is hinting to me abtou others wondering if and when we're going to get married. anyway, I'm not going to turn this into a mini-novel, but will write more soon... keep checking back! I'm gonna go try to play some Diablo 2 online now so see-ya's again soon!
luch love and hugs to all my friends and family the read this,
Current Mood: depressed Current Music: 'Cherry Pie (I need a freak)- Insane Clown Posse
well I decided I'd post again.. sorry it's been forever... I just wanted to let everyone know I'm still alive and kicking... been pretty depressed over a lot of stuff going on in my life, but i'm surviving it all and gonna be ok, eventually, right now just have some stuff to work out with my sponsor. Bob and I are still together... over 3 yrs and 2 1/2 months now to be exact ( We started dating on September 8th,2001 and have NEVER broken up yet since we started to date)... Not much has been happening here other than I recently found out officially that I have carpal tunnel syndrome, so i got these 2 braces (annoying as heck too) to wear on my wrists at night and they suck... They're called Cock-up splints and they have the laces and velcro that wrap around.. I hate them cause every morning when I wake up, they make my wrists pop. Went also to see my dr. about a few weeks ago and she took me of the strattera for my adhd because it was making me MORE irritable.. so if u complain about PMS, u shoulda seen me when I was on that stuff! god it was aweful! she's taken me off of it.. I'ms till on my accolate (for my allergy related wheezing I sometimes get). That's not too bad of stuff for me. it works and that's all that matters. She thinks I could possibly be bipolar or have borderline personality disorder which those of of u who know me and how i used to cut myself woudl make a lot more sense.. I'm doign good there, I havent cut since June.. We'll see what happens next time I go to see her on december 13th. November 23rd I finally get to go see my eye doctor.. had this appointment since late august or early september.. What the fuck up with her making me wait so long, ya know? just cause u're on medicaid doesn't mean that u shoudl have to suffer with 'dorky glasses' that used to be your mom's that actually are way too strong for you to really see good outta... they work thoug, but i have to take them off to read a book cause they're trifocals... trifocals? WTF up with that crazy shit?? I dont' even need them like that I just need a new regular pair of cute glasses. I'm gonna be so happy when i finally get my NEW glasses.. OMG, it's been so long since I've had a new pair.. unfortunately Medicaid doens't pay for contacts, so its Glasses for me *frowns*.... oh well I'm doomed to them probally for the rest of my life. Heck if i coudl afford lasik eye surgery, I'd probally go for that.. I wonder if medicaide will pay for that? hmmm?? anyway my recovery has been kinda rocky.. relapsed in June, about a week after I lost my job at Bon-L , it sucked. I stayed clean and sober abotu a week and then decided I couldnt' handle the not workign thing anymore and I drank over it and i spent abtou a month 'out there' no caring to stay sober and clean. I'm doing ok now.. got Clean and sober again on July 10th. Been sober ever since. I HAD 17 months clean, but then i screwed up, hopefully I didn't let too many of you guys down. I hate being a constant disapointment to everyone liek that. Anyway I have a new sponsor named Brad and He's so wonderful. he's got 20 yrs in recovery... but relapsed and now he has 15 years of clean time... I'm working NA with him.. it's awesome. Right now, We're getting ready to start on the 4th step.. oh god I really loathe that thought BIG TIME... cause I hate taking a personal inventory... cause it's hard to do sometimes on certain things, but I KNOW it's necessary, anyway it's 214 am here now and I need to be in bed... I have to greet at an online meeting that my sponsor happens to chair..., the meeting may be at 11 my time, but 11 am still comes early when u have to actually get up on a saturday and u'd rather be sleeping and have to get up to make lunch for u're dad anyway at 9 am and its already going on 215 am and luckily he lives out in arizona and is 2 hours behind me, cause he fortunately will be getting more sleep that i wil be.. anyway i hope to update this again soon. Love ya'll!
Take the quiz: "What Kind of Soul Do You Retain?" Tortured You aren't sure how to feel, and this leaves you constantly in distress about what you do and who you are. You are tortured in the fact you can't run OR hide.
Current Mood: numb Current Music: "Numb"- Linkin Park
The Church Carnival 7/9/2004 Bob picked me up yesterday afternoon and we went to Valpo. to meet a bunch of his friends from work and we went to a church carnival at Kim's church. I'm friends with most of them. I dunno if some of them like me though... cause they don't say much to me. and they all look at me like they're jelous of me or something. It kinda hurts me cause I feel like they're judging me. Cause there are sometimes a few whispers that go on behind our back's. I see it but Bob doesn't always see it and he tells me that they love me, but I dunno sometimes..... They tend to talk to him more anyway cause they know him and work with him. I don't. I feel like the outsider sometimes. So we got to Kim's house and we waited for Brad to get there and also Jeff. then Kim's parents stopped by the house to see if all of us were going to the carnival and also to talk to Kim... so we were all there when they got there, except Jeff, who had been having a bit of car trouble since he went down a pretty bad road on a short cut to Portage where Kim lives and so his car was smoking when he arrived... but first we went to Dairy Dip (ice cream place) while we waited for jeff to get there and so Kim's parents told us they'd see us there at the carnival and they'd tell Jeff to stay and wait for us, but we made it back before Jeff got to Kim's house, and then Bob and I rode with Kim and John and then Jeff rode with Brad to the carnival. Kims' parent's found us right away and then we walked around and played a few games... Bob won me a little stuffed mouse.. the is cute... then we walked around and Kim's parent's found us again and asked if we wanted to go to the beer gardens for a drink, and we're all like ok, we'll see u there, and we went there... and then Kim's dad bought us some beer and he asked me if I wanted some and I told him I preferred pop instead if possible, but I somehow ended up with beer and drank about 2 1/2 glasses... and boy did I start to feel all woozy, after a few sips... I drank it way too fast and on practically an empty stomach.. bad combo... anyway I had to sit there awhile so I wouldn't get sick all over the place... and this is unusual for me to get sick when I drink...ever...no matter how much... I had a good buzz happening... it was kinda bad cause John was sitting there wanting me to chugg it all down fast and I was already sick to my stomach..... and I did it anyway, and no I didn't hurl, but I regretted it..Then after I somewhat sobered up and Bob too, we all went to look around again and decided to grab something to snack on there, and John was drunk as hell, so it was pretty embarassing to me and also to Kim... cause he's say stupid stuff... and he insulted me later that night and I wanted to kick his butt... they challenged me to do a shooting game with a cork gun and I did it but I was still pretty messed up, and so I got up there and took 5 shots and got it on the 5th shot... I normally get in in 2-3, but cause i was drinking, I wasn't able to concentrate very well and they were all tryign to distract me and when I hit it they're like holy shit.... she CAN shoot... lol... and I got mad at John saying I wouldn't be able to hit any of the cups.. but I hit 3 times this one cup and it wouldn't go over so I took aim at another one up top and knocked it over the first time... and it was cool. They all cheered then John insulted me again about somethign else.. then Bob was like Anj, he's drunk so he doeswn't mean it... well I know from experience that sometimes when u're drunk U say the truth and u don't want to, but it comes out anyway... well I we also plyed bingo after that and I almost won.. I only spent a grand total of $2.50... for all the bingo games I played... not too bad. then we all left for Kim's house again and then we tried to decide what to do next and we decided to all go to white castle where most of them work and then we picked up Nikita ("Nikki") and we all stood around chattign inside for awhile then we saw Jeff come inside and sit down quietly and he was all upset, but not sayign anything at first then John asked if he wanted to go outside and he didn't say anything, then we're all wondering what the heck is going on here... and finally he decided to go outside after sitting there for about 15-20 minutes with all of use wondering what was wrong... and then The guys went outside to talk, and Kim, Nikki, and I stayed inside for a little bit longer and talked about my plans for Bob's birthday since we're all doing something together for it (my idea).....I asked them if they all wanted to go to indiana beach for his birthday and they both thought it would be lots of fun and they loved the idea.. and so we're going to try to get a bunch of friends together to go there for his birthday, but that's a few weeks away yet... anyway we sat there and did the usual girl chat..... hehehe... then I asked them what we shoudl do next.. and Kim said we shoudl go chekc on the guys so we did... and then we found out that Jeff's girlfriend Mallory (who also works there at W.C.) just dumped him in the parking lot while we were there, and so he was all depressed over it, but we got him cheered up finally, well a little bit anyway... He was like, maybe I need to go to Tad's house now and see if he can hook me up with someone.... (I guess Tad was having a party of some kind, I wouldn't go even if I was invited, cause I don't know Tad very well and I woudl feel really out of place anyway)... wellI'm tired of writting but that's basically it... and then Bob and I left them all there and went grocery shopping at wal-mart, before he took me home... We shopped around midnight... it was fun. I'll write more soon...
I'm a Marigold. The bloom of grief, sadness, cruelty and jealousy. Yeah well. I can't help it if I've had a hard life. Everything is a struggle for me, it seems. What bloom are you? by Polly_Snodgrass
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